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Stanley, 06.22.89
殷亿 - Chinese
ｽﾀﾝレｰ - Jap
陳殷億 - Chinese
ちんいんおく- Jap
스탠리 - Korean
สแตนเล่ย์ - Thai
Life is too short to be Negative
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22June1989
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In NP(BS)
Was in CVSS
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Monday, October 13, 2008

Now knowing that i might leave this week!
all the feeling came back again!
but this time...its different!
Most likely will be leaving this sat or Friday
which i had not plan for! But (is better to leave now i guess)
But leaving to work in shanghai is tough when my parents are sort of Sad?

Got a feeling that i am leaving with no full support! Hence i kinda tough for me ya
"blessing" from them are important

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I was asked to try to apply the PSC scholarship thingy
My parents really wants me to take it up
But in my heart, i can hear the burning NONONONONO!!!!
is kinda tough, wondering if i should take a route for them or for myself

I choose not to take! (following my guts)
I wanted to explain to them why i do not want PSC! (but he refuses to accept)
i know it will lighten the finance burden of my dad, (i wish i could do, and i have been trying to)
But i really hope that i can get their "blessing"
I really want them to support the choice i made! It is really tough making such choice
What i wanted to heard is like " I trust you! just follow your heart"
"Go boy! do what you love and what you want! i support you"
"Yeah go for it, dun give up your hopes and dreams"

Maybe this is after all traditional Asian Chinese family
what they do are for my own good
they want is to see me being successful also
i know their intentions, i know they care and love me

Being parents, i can understand they afraid that one day the baby that used to be on their arms will grow big and leave them one day. I can understand this feeling because being a child, we hope that we will never grow up and always be on their parents arms. (subjective my feeling). All parents do not wish their child to fall and take the wrong step in life. They want them to be happy too~

But, i guess is time for me to step out and grow
and i guess is time for me to make some choice in my life
No matter what! i feel that being an 19! i really have to learn some lesson
I wish my dad would understand that i am really not suited to be working in the public sectors
and to treat me like a young adult, giving me more room to grow and to find who i really am..

Dad, mum, sis - Love you