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Stanley, 06.22.89
殷亿 - Chinese
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Tuesday, February 15, 2011

I wonder what had happened to me now.
I no longer feel energetic about things.

Yesterday I wrote about love and passion, I really do believe in them. However, this feeling seems to be leaving me since last year. Feel like I have been wasting my time thinking and doing stupid things. Spending my day everyday, hoping, waiting, thinking about (I dun know, so random that I cannot explain) something that seems important. GOSH I cannot carry on wasting my life not doing meaningful stuff.

Topic about love during Feb 14th
I do not know! Tried about it sometimes
Only if human have no heart, things can be sharp and simple. Perhaps too much emotion and feeling just make a person useless. I believe in this power, but this power is so great that it can destroy a person. Sometime I wonder, if I cared to much about others...

Recently, there are a few person approached me and asked me what they should do in their lives. I helped them by sharing my personal views and often tell them to do what they truly love. I started to question myself what I truly love and wonder if I am really true to myself.

The answer to myself : I do not know
Why?
There are just too many things I want to do and I am interested in that I do not know what I should do? Perhaps that is the main reason, but I believe the main reason I feel so lost and confuse is that lose my confidence. I wonder when I started to lose something that is so natural to me, perhaps is the place I am at now that make me doubt about my abilities, or that I am just such a loser.

People always say “ you are Stanley leh!”
I do not know! But I am a human too~ I have my problems and uncertainty in life! People always say I demand too much from myself and others. What can I do? I do not know myself these days! Feel like a wondering ghost trying to find a place.

Perhaps is the place/responsibilities that slowly eating away my heart and soul. Consuming my mind and energy. Sudden urge to ORD, though I know road ahead will be tougher but I have to. I believe one day, just one day I will find my space and my world.